Mood: Quiet
Music: Marry Me - Nightmare of you.

100. My name is Alanea
99. i have two middle names
98. Born up north
97. Raised down south
96. I have never been on a date
95. I have never recieved flowers
94. I wish i had an excuse to wear my old prom dress
93. I wish i had a best friend
92. I liked Rap music in the seventh grade.
91. my favorite flower is a black holly hock.
90. I love turqouise.
89. I want a tattoo, but im too afraid of needles and pissing off my parents.
87. I dont like the day time.
86. I know that im too obsessed with panic at the disco.
85. I like to put random colors in my hair
84. Acting is the best thing in the world to me
83. I watch way too much scrubs
82. im slightly obsessed with heroes.
81. I always want what i cant have
80. College student.
79. I want to move to either New York or LA after i graduate.
78. i sometimes think im too afraid to be happy
76. daughter of an alcoholic
75. Grandaughter of four other alcoholics
74. i never met one of my grandfathers
73. yes, i am a hannah montana fan
72. im one of the few people in the world who cannot stand family guy
71. sometimes i wonder if people talk about me behind my back
70. i can be very paranoid
69. Im not too fond of my new roomates
68. Im falling for someone, who could quite possibly be the worst person in the world to fall for.
67. I wish i could wear flip flops everyday of the year.
66. I hate being hot.
67. I sleep in till two almost every day
66. Not a morning person
65. i feel like naps are a waste of time, but i still take them way too often.
64. I prefer to hang out with boys
63. I like to cook
62. Mexican food is my favorite :D
61. Obama 08 supporter
60. I feel like im still seventeen
59. I would marry kurt cameron, even though he is super religous.
58. I dont go to church
57. Catholic
56. over-dramatic
55. poor loser
54. I hate being tickled.
53. i laugh like a bunny
52. I had my first kiss at age 16
51. Virgin
50. Pro-choice
49. I want to be in a relationshp with someone who could also be my best friend
48. I want to be asain, so i could be rockin at DDR. lol. j.k.
47. I dont have a certain "type" of boys im interested in.
46. I once had a tight friendship with Lindsey and Alex, and i hate how things tour us apart.
45. I still watch Degrassi
44. I sometimes wish i was canadian
43. I subconsciencly change myself to be what people want me to be....and i hate it.
42. I dont know who i am.
41. I want to be a lead in a musical someday
40. I doubt myself too much
39. I wish i was living in belk next year (dorm)
38. I blame myself for my parents problems.
37. I crave physical touch.
36. I hate watching scarey movies, unless i have someone to watch them with ;]
35. I havent kissed anyone since September.
34. Transformers is my favorite movie
33. No boy i have ever liked has ever liked me back.
32. Im starting to learn a lot about myself
31. I hate confrontation.
30. I just want to feel like im good enough for someone, cause i never seem to be.
29. I like music i can relate to.
28. addicted to soda
27. I love gatorade
26. i love going to the zoo.
25. i like creative people
24. I like vodka.... a lot!
23. I cant tell if a guy likes me
22. about to start working at UPS.
21. I dont like people to know when i like them, so i ignor them... probably not a good plan.
20. Im going to make 605 dolalrs a week during summer if i play my cards right
19. Tangled up in me by skye sweetnum is bassically about me. or atleast it seems like it.
18. The only boy i have ever loved, broke my heart into a million peices.
17. The only condoment i like is Ketchup.
16. Lonely September makes me think of so many boys in my life.
15. I still feel like i am 17.
14. I have met bands such as Metro Station, Cobra Starship, Meg and Dia, We the Kings, The Cab, and The Click Five.
13. I havent been to the beach in three years
12. I am terrified of the dentist
11. I wish i was more of a gamer than i really am.
10. i dominate at mario kart
9. I secretly love Santana.
8. Watermelon is my favorite fruit and smell.
7. I over-analyze waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much
6. I get too attatched to people
5. im more of an optimist than i like to admit
4. Im afraid of being happy
3. I enjoy cooking
2. Im messy
1. Im scared of commitment.

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Music: Roses - Meg & Dia

I seriously think someone needs to buy me some more plaid shorts... can you say obsession?

thank you.

Mood: random.
Music: She's a handsom woman - Panic At The Disco

so today was the first day of vacation that i havent slept in till at least noon. Which should help the whole insomnia deal i have been dealing with. Took my mom to work today so i could use her car to go look for a new job, but then was too lazy to motivate myself to actually go look for a new job.
i wish the pool was open. Once it officially opens is probably when i get a job, and then im gonna wish i didnt have one.
I am addicted to internet speed. The card game. I got to round 22 the other day which was pretty sweet.
Im also addicted to the new colbie colliate or however the hell you spell her names song. Realize. Its been stuck in my head for like three days.
Went to Mcdonalds with Tom and Greg last night. I think in the like fourteen years that i have lived in the same neighborhood as greg i have never heard him talk as much as i did last night. i guess he is finally comfortable with me. we then went to toms house where i was dominated in golden eye. i need to catch up on my old school 64 skills.
Im buying DDR tomorrow. Then Brittany is coming over and we're having a DDR-Athon. color me excited. i tried playing the korean game Pump It Up, which is bassically DDR, but it was too difficult for me. the arrows were in different spots and it just was too confusing.
I forgot how much i love Bojangles. I had it around eight this morning when i took my mom to work.
didnt fall asleep till 3am last night, i laid in bed and played my DS for like 2 hours, im sure i was a gamers dream. laying in a tank top and underwear playing DS. im forced to ask the question, why am i so freaking cool?
I wish i had an unlimited supply of money sometimes. There are so many things i want to buy, but i have no funds.
Went to apply at a cute thrift store in winston last night. They were really chill, and i would love to work there. They had a cabnet full of old school NES games. i looked for a DDR game, since the one im buying from GameSpot is like 30$, and they didnt have one. i might go back tomorrow and look.
Ive discovered watching movies online. It fed my insomnia for the last three nights. I watched Enchanted, Charlie Bartlett, and Refer Madness. All were pretty good movies.
I wish i got more bumper stickers on facebook from people. I send out like atleast four a day and i hardly ever get any back. sadtimes i suppose.
Did anyone know that Just Shoot Me is on TVLand now? When i saw that i sat and pondered how old i am at that point. I mean i remember when new episodes of that show would come on and i would be stoked because school would have been cancled due to school and i was able to watch it. weiiiiiiiiiiiiiiird.

Im ready to meet a boy again, thank you.

p.s. maybe this time, not one who has a girlfriend and confesses his feelings for me when he is drunk.... yeah that would nice.

-Alanea.

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Mood: gotta get out of my freaking out
Music: There's a class for this - Cute is What We Aim For

   Hey guys, remember me? the girl who USED to write this blog almost everyday and then ended up never writing in it ever! Well if anyone of you guys read my blog you should know how obsessed i am with a band i love to refer to as PATD, better known as Panic at the disco. Me and one of my best friends Sierra went to go see them on sunday. I was super stoked. Sierra came and picked me up from my dorm around one and we prepared to hit the road, after making a stop at walmart to buy oil to put in monster, aka sierras car. which i have learned is a everytime thing from now on. we bought five dollar footlongs from subway so that way we would have something to eat on the drive back from charlotte.

After awhile of a couple of drops coming down on us, it turned into an all out downpour. It felt like a million of b-bs coming down on us, my pants were soaked with water up till my knees, and my once warm fake walmart uggs were now sponges soaking up every last bit of water they touched. We stood out in the rain for about an hour until they finally opened the doors. Sierra was pissed because the woman behind us had a damn umbrella and had it right over her head, so the rain was falling of the umbrella onto sierra. haha damn people. when we got to the doors a man asked if i was 21, since im only 19 he took a giant red stamp and marked my hands, since it was still slightly pouring the red stamps didnt stay on for very long. when we got inside a women marked my hands again and then let us go on, sierra headed upstairs to the balcony while i went to the merch stand and bought a wicked cute motion city soundtrack t-shirt. i ended up standing in line behind a woman with her two like eleven year old kids, and she ended up getting like 100$ worth of merch, but paid in like fives and ones. ummm i wanted to smack some speed into the damn woman.  after the woman paid, a little old lady ended up getting helped before me, only this time, she had the merch girl pick out and show her bassically one of everything, while she was deciding some girls came up behind me and were like "omg i love motion city soundtrack are they playing too?" i wanted to turn around and be like, no they just randomly sell their merch and other peoples shows...idiots. i finally bought my shirt and heading up to the balcony. me and sierra got pretty close to the stage but i ended up having to stand next to this gag nasty old red neck man, who insisted on smoking the whole fucking time. heres an idea, if you think your kid is too young to go to a show alone, then dont let them go period. i hate it when parents get a better view than me. first band up was phantom planet. The only song by them i had ever really heard was California. They played a good set, and California was the last song they played, i rather enjoyed them. i would have bought their cd if i had had more than 10 dollars to my name. next up was the hush sound. they ended up playing a song, that i always heard at work and i had no idea they sung it, talk about a nice surprise. Wine red wasnt as good live as it is on their cd. which is understandble i suppose. After the hush sound came the AMAZING motion city soundtrack.

they were freaking AMAZING. Me and Sierra were the only people on the balcony that were dancing around to them, i think after their set i pretty much lost my voice, haha. After MCS it finally came time for the ultimate act of amazingness. Panic at the fucking disco.

they are my favorite band in the history of history. they were simply amazing. Jon walkers said that we are all having a pool party at his moms house, he called her and she said it was okay haha. im holding you to that jon! no im not a stalker i promise.... well not that much of a stalker i suppose.

that is officially my favorite picture if B-Urie i have ever taken. YES I TOOK THAT! after they played me and sierra walked back to the car, in sketch ass town. i called my bestie Ben to talk to as we walked back, that way if someone attacked us, he could call the cops. we talked until i reached the car. then we headed back towards kernersville, sierra had a panic attack due to not have any gas and not knowing where a station and/or the high way was. we found a gas station and such and procceeded to drive home. i was STARVING to i grabbed my sandwich and discovered that old subway is possibly one of the grossest things ever. As we drove back we listened to Metro Station, which is bassically what we ALWAYS listen to on long car rides, and we danced like Trace Cyrus did at the metro station concert we had gone to about a month prior. Sierra then dropped me off and i went to go upstairs. I ran into ben as i was heading into the dorms, and he decided that he was going to spend the night with me. we walked up to my room and i discovered the my roomates boyfriend was spending the night with her once again. i had an exam the next day and really could not be bothered with that right then. so i ended up spending the night in bens room. the next day i went back to my room and layed in bed till my exam. i called work and they had scheduled my to come in at the same time as my exam, i freaked out and had to find someone to come in. I went and did my acting exam, which went by a lot better than i thought it would, during the exam Luke decided that he wanted to make dinner for every, i mean kudos im always up for people making me dinner. So after we helped marie pack, which consisted of me and luke sitting in the car watching each other play my DS, we headed to the grocery store. we only had 30 dollars to spend on the dinner. Making spaghetti seemed like a cheap and easily solution... well you would be wrong if you thought that. we had to ration and even after that no one really ate a lot of the stuff we got, which looking back kind of sucks. while luke cooked dinner i had to go to work for a stupid hour. Maria wanted to leave and i told her i would come in, which looking back makes me more mad than i was when i originally had to go in. that night i put in my notice that i was going to be seasonal and only work when i had to be at school, seeing that the mall is way too far to drive with gas being oh so expensive. That night ended with Jenn, Marie, and me laying in lukes bed, all of us trying not to cry because marie was leaving. The next day was pretty chill. I had an exam at eight thirty in the morning and then i came back and slept from eleven am to about four in the afternoon. That night i hung out with Alyssa and procceeded to pack. around one am luke came by and we played speed and watched scrubs. i learned he played the bass, which gave him a couple more cool points in my book. the next couple of days i just packed and then came home. Now im stuck back at home. Bored as ever. haha well i suppose its time to wrap up this long entry.

come see if i click clack again sometime soon,
Alanea Jean.

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Mood: trying to sleep.
Music: Lovesick melody - paramore.

So my weekend was probably the funniest weekend ive had since i started college. it consisted of:

*lovely classes.
*auditions for plays
*loud suitemates
*subway
*gatorade rain
*aeropostale
*guitar hero
*bud lite
*90s music
*Sum41
*Theta frat party
*pomagranate mixed drinks
*old school mario kart
*Scootering
*Juno
*drunken knocks
*peanut butter and jelly sandwiches
*panic at the disco with no !
*fitting eleven people in one car meant for five
*new panic songs
*visits from friends
*rancoons
*people apparently having sex changes
*poogle
*drunks on bunkbeds
*broken buddahs
*speaking in unison
*beerpong
*tennis times

and i have to be up in less than 4 hours. But for some reason i cant get to sleep. I lay here in the dark just pondering my life over and over again and for some reason when ever i ponder my life all i can think about are the boys that have screwed me over in it. I have this amazing feeling everyday that the year 2008 is gonna be a great year and that something amazing is going to happen. i can just feel it. Its like i know something is gonna happen i just dont know what it is. but i also cant help but have this feeling that i always seems to think somkething great is going to happen only for my entire world to come crashing down around me not so long after the amazing part of my  life begins. ive always had the same philsophy about my life like the law of gravity. What comes up must come down. Anytime something great happens in my life, something bad is waiting around the corner. it could be a week later, a month later, maybe even 5 months later. but its sitting there. waiting fro just the rightmoment to unleash unhappyness into my life. And i cant stop thinking about aaron. ever since i saw him on new years at alexs house i cant help thinking about him. but im not gonna pursue anything b/c itjust wouldnt be right of me. I have this problem of only wanting him around when i cannot have him. Its not fair to him and im sick of being THAT girl. plus him and his girlfriend are so happy together. and even tho i think that if i tried i could get him back i just dont wanna be the girl to unleash her moment of unhappiness. because i know mine is gonna come all too soon. ::sigh:: i go back to school in 3 days. man time is flying by and i cant help but think that over break i some how changed. im sick of being shy and lonely. im ready for a relationship. im ready to branch out. im just not sure if im ready to be ready. if that makes any sence.

the only thing i dont think is ready. is my fear of rejection.

then again maybe that part of me never will be ready....

-Degrassigirl07 aka Alanea.

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Music: Friend Request - gymclassheroes

   hey kiddos out there in cyber space. Life has changed a lot since my last lame entry. Im not a college student. speaking of college i am sitting in my western civ class as i type this very entry. I am living a normal college students life. Living in a dorm on my own for the first time, in a place where i know nobody and have to start all over again. I have a roomate named Catherine. Catherine is the type of girl who went to a classy small town private high school where her graduating class was about the size of one of my math class in high school. There were only 3 black kids and one hispanic kid in her entire high school. Catherine is the type of girl i would have not hung out with in high school. We have totally different tastes in music and guys. Cept for we both believe that Brendon Boyd Urie is very beautiful, but i mean who doesnt believe that?! Catherine i mean i dont even know how to even begin to tell you all the things that have already began drama in our room, so lets just skip that entire subject.
   I have a best friend on campus. Maria. Maria and i met when i started my new job at Aeropostale. Ironicly she lives in the suite right under mine. I hang out in her room 90% of the time i am on campus partly b/c we're bffs and partly because i cant stand being in my own room.
   So the other night was probably the best night ive had since i got to college. On Wednesday November 7th i got to go see four of the best bands around right now in my opinion. If anyone has the chance to go see the Young Wild Things Tour featuring Gym class heroes, Plain White T's, Cute is what we aim for, and Fall out boy you should most deffinatly need to go. That show was amazing. By far the second best concert i have ever gone to. Me and my friend Lindsey drove 2 hours to go see this concert. We ended up having to stop in bumfuck virginia at a wendys (which was probably the best wendys ive ever had) and ate and for once felt like city folk, which is funny b/c our town is most deff not a city. Me and Tom from PLain White T's shared a moment haha. eye contact for like 5 seconds i promise you! okay probably not, but a girl is aloud to dream isnt she?
   All though this show was probably one of the best ive ever been to, it in no way comes close the "Nothing Rhymes With Circus" tour. ohemgeeeeeee. November 10th was the one year anniversery of when i got to see the two loves of my life, Brendon Boyd Urie and George Ryan Ross. I watched the DVD of that concert awhile ago. i always forget how much i loved that show till i watch it again.
   For all of you that dont know though, sadnews. Panic! at the disco's new cd debut has been pushed back to an estimation of Feburary. They got done with 3/4s of the new cd and decided they didnt like it so they scraped it and started alllllllll over again. DAMNIT. that really sucks haha. but i mean atleast we all now know that they are hardcore perfectionist. Heres to hoping that their new cd wont be a dissappointment. i mean heres to KNOWING that their new cd wont be a dissappointment. lol.
   So there is a new LOL (love of life). His name is Nick. he is quite adorable i am not going to lie. he is from up north and attends school down here in the tiny little south. Why anyone would want to come down here for school baffels me b/c i have been trying my whole life to get out of this tiny place and yet people are trying to get in. crazy. anyways, he works at American Eagle which is right next door to my Aeropostale that i work at. can you spell Fate?
   Well i suppose i should be getting back to paying attention in my western civ class. have fun loves and i promise to click clack again later :]

-Alanea Love a.k.a Degrassigirl07

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Mood.happy in a way

Music. You're crashing but you're not a wave

   So lately i have just been sitting around doing nothing. working at 2 jobs which has not been turning out exactly as i thought it would. i got into the college of my dreams that i have been wanting to go to since i was in eigthe grade. but a part of me feels like i dont want to go to college. not b/c im lazy or anything but just because i partially feel like im just going to college b/c its what im supposed to do. you know. when your five you go to kindergarden. then elementry school. then middle school. then high school. and then college. its what ive been raised to believe youre supposed to do. and i find myself getting nastalgic over the little things. today marks exactly 2 months till i wear the hideous orange gown and walk across the stage after waiting to hear my name in the blazing sun on a concrete bleacher where ill be surrounded by people who have been in my grade since i can even remember but havent even spoken to in the same amount of time. my friends will be on the other side. and when i think about it. thats like how its gonna be from that day on. me and my friends that i cant even imagine right now being without will be scattered among the state. and ill have to deal.

   My sister is getting married july. and i know i am happy for her but a part of me thinks she is being selfish. half of my relatives that i wanted to come to my graduation cant becase they cant come both times.  and i mean apparently a wedding is more important than something an 18 year old girl has only spent pretty much her whole life trying to acheve. i have so many events coming up. and as crazy as it is. graduation, my sisters wedding, freshmen orientation. none of those are the most exciting. Me and Lindsey sue are going to NYC this summer. we're going to see Grease and Wicked on broadway. Im going b/c i have been obsessed with Wicked since like i was a sophmore. and i plan on seeing it sometime. and i have been watching that Grease reality show and MAX WON!!! max was my favorite so its a most deff. that i have to go. Lindsey is going b/c she is going to college to make broadway costume. can you spell exciting!

   i didnt do my math homework.

   i should do that.

come see if i click clack again tomorrow,

Alanea aka Degrassigirl07

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Mood: tired

Music: You and I -Jason Mraz

My weekend consisted of.......

• Coldstone
• Mexican Food
• Fall out boy cds
• Play rehersals
• being hit with a drum stick
• being yelled at by a teacher for playing with the drumstick
• 50 cent bottled water
• waddeling
• Prom dates
• apple juice
• waste basket basketball
• napkin flowers
• meeting cute boys :D
• sleeping in
• Time changes
• pizza
• tasers
• knocking on windsheilds
• tapping possums
• mcdonalds fudge sundaes
• cute boys with orange streaks in their hair :]
• myspace trades
• soda cravings
• bagels from panera
• fight with best friend
• couples getting back together
• War (the card game)
• work
• twisted ankles
• college bound
• phantom of the opera
• toys r us
• nice weather

and thats about it

funfunfun

come see if i click clacked again tomorrow,

alanea aka degrassigirl07

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Mood: gotta get out of here.

Music: Cant take it- The All-American Rejects

   So yeah its been like probably 7 months or so since ive updated and i went and checked all of my entries out today and i was like i think im gonna go and write a new one. Nothing is really going on in my life thats that important. I went to the panic! at the disco aka my obsession concert. and i LOVED it they were amazing. Right now im in the middle of my senior year and im jsut ready to move on. im so sick of all the shit and high school drama thats been going on lately. i thought i fell in love with a boy awhile back but it just got in the middle of the high school drama not to mention that we dont even talk anymore b/c of all the drama and we just got sick of being around each other because we just ended up fighting all the time. he deleted me on myspace but then i sent him a message that was not at all nice telling him exactly how i felt bout him and we havent talked since. that was about december. I miss the way things used to be. When everyone was friends and did every thing together. I wanna go to the movies. I havent been to see one since i went with Brittany and Maria and that seems like something interesting to do. I dyed my hair for the first time in a long time. Sierra went with me b/c i was nervous. We got out of school early to do it and it was pretty friggin fun. I got a pink streak but its mostly out by now b/c idk the dye was pretty shitty mostly. so me and sierra are gonna order some turqouise dye, the same kind that audrey kitching uses. If you dont know who she is you need to go to www.buzznet.com/audreykitching and check her out. she is pretty much the coolest girl in history. right now im sitting in my living room thinking about my love life. or lack there off. Sara seems o think that i only like boys when they dont like me and then when they like me back then i dont like them anymore. which i think is bull. she said i did that with aaron. but that wasnt the case. the reason i didnt go out with aaron was b/c when we finnaly kissed we didnt have any chemistry. and Jimmy told me he loved me the other day. which was a bit awkward considereing we werent "talking" or anything and i didnt know how to react. so i kind of didnt. i said i had to go to class. b/c who says that at school ofr the first fucking time !!!! so i just flipped by the disney channel and those Jonas brothers band is on and i think i am in love with the singer. he is rather attractive.

i need a date for prom. wanna go?

come see if i click clacke again tomorrow,

Alanea aka Degrassigirl07

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